My son is now 10 years old, he has only seen his father maybe three times....his father is now 29 years old. Not playing a present role may have been understandable and somewhat acceptable when he was 17 or 18, but now that he is knocking on 30, its getting somewhat rediculous to me. It seems that he is showing an interest in having an active role, but its likely that its all in my mind. My baby's first soccer game of the spring season was today and although I called his father (who hasn't been to any of his sporting events his entire life) earlier in the week to invite him, he still didn't show up. I am not surpised nor unhappy that he didn't show. I didn't tell my son that I spoke to him or that he might come, so there is no disappointment that he has to suffer. He doesn't know anything else anyway. Its not like he expected his dad to be there or that he planned to look over to the sideline and see him standing there cheering. He has grown accustomed to only seeing me, his mom (and his dad for the most part), standing there cheering him on....instructing him...encouraging him. So why is it that I am even talking about this? Maybe I am the disappointed one. Maybe after making another step to reach out to him and offer an opportunity for him to step up, and him not taking that step, I am in a way "let down". I guess I was thinking things would be different. I'm not sure why I expected as much as I did from someone who hasn't proven himself to be worthy of any parental expectations. We have lived in the same city for 10 years, probably less than 5 miles away, yet we never see or hear from him. Fortunately, my son has stopped asking where he is and why he isn't a part of his life, but I can't help but assume that he still wonders those things privately. He has to....
Anyway, for those single parents out there who may be going through the same thing, I want to encourage you today to continue to be strong and continue to be the best parent YOU can be. God didn't intend for us to be two people, but He did equip us to be the parents He called us to be. Everything we need is already within us. Pray for your co-parent, that he/she be the parent that God intended for them to be. Just know that it will happen in God's time, not yours, and not mine. Ask God to help you to be the best parent possible and then leave it to Him to handle the struggles for you. Keep in mind that all things happen so that God can get the glory. It may seem far off or nearly impossible for that absent parent to play an active role, but image how it will feel the day that he/she finally comes around. When whatever stronghold has been holding them back is finally been broken, it will be obvious that it was nothing but God that made the change and made the change possible. Here's another important thing, please try not to insult your co-parent in front of the children. Its not our place to judge them and its never a good thing to speak negatively about them to the children. If anything, allow the kids to form their own opinion. Offer positive feedback and objective thinking as much as possible. God will take care of everything. He will take care of you and he will take care of what needs to be done in your co-parent's life. Let go and let God. All you need to do is sit back and watch God work.......
Blessings....